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Wednesday, 08 July 2009

  • GRIEVING FRIENDS




    I did not spend too much time watching Michael Jackson's funeral.  I just couldnt!  All the alleged or so-called friends, pouring in by the masses...Did Michael know he was loved so much?  Where were these friend when he stood accused and where were these friends when he sat alone abusing narcotics?  Do you think possibly if he knew he was so loved that he would have used to death? 
    For the record; Michael was a Legend, "King of Pop"!  I love his music and will dance to it till my own death but Michael Jackson did not break down the walls of discrimination; he wasnt even comfortable in his own skin.  Like many of us, he looked in the mirror and only saw how he could improve himself. Yet, with all the money one could buy, still found no happienss with exception to his best remedy, a few pill bottles that left a few children fatherless, siblings, brotherless, parents with one less child and a nation with one less "True American Idol".  


    Rest in Peace Michael,  I hope to see you in heaven. 
    Ephesians 1:18
    I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints,

Monday, 06 July 2009

  • HOW MUCH EFFORT IS TOO MUCH?

    Ever had a relationship you really put a whole lot of work into and yet, some how, you did not get much in return?  Im a firm believer that a deeply committed relationship takes two; it's 50/50.  Now, there will be times when the give and take is more or less on the other person or ourselves but it should never feel like trying too hard to make it work or should you feel worn out doing it all.
    So what does a healthy relationship look like? 
    1. Each person should reach out
    2. Love one another for each others likes and differences as well.
    3. If you have issue, take it up with that person in kind and loving words and do not tell others.
    4. Be committed to good times, dont abandon in bad.
     
    Now if you find yourself doing all the work, make attempts  to allow the other person participate and then slowly back out. No harm, no foul, if they really want to relate, they will come to you and if not; then you are free to find someone who really wants to have a deep and intentional relationship.

    What do you think?





Friday, 03 July 2009

  • TIMES OF CHANGE (AGAIN)





    I've never been good at change, especially when it means leaving from one location to another. Somehow I used to feel this was something being done to me but recently; my eyes have been opened to the possibility that this is something God is allowing to grow me and others around me as well.

    What I have to say next is an expression of my feelings and my opinion, there is not hate nor malice in my heart toward anyone only unfolding my process to meet intimately with my "Daddy".

    As many know, I am moving again.  In the beginning, I was upset, Its too soon, I just got here... why me?

    At first I was not sure how to feel but I knew what I felt was very unhealthy and detrimental to my health.  I did not know where to turn, I felt lonely and abandoned.  In some ways, my feelings were legitimate; Jim and I had people making decisions for us without any consideration of how it would effect our family; no one asked me how I felt and when my feelings were made known; no one said a word, no followup, not even a caring hug.   As a home owner, I know from my experience that things that need repairing, if left ignored will only become an out of control problem... and so, that is what happened. 

    I  process out loud; I need to talk, I need to express my feeling, I need to be heard and I need to feel..

    My heart aches over leaving, it doesn't matter whether it be knowing you all my life or for 10 months; I could not imagine having to do this once in my life, let alone once every other year and now in 10 months; regardless, it all hurts... God appointed me as His disciple to help His children become and to equip you to be fully devoted followers of Christ.  How then is it healthy for me to gain your trust, assure you of my loyalty and then leave you? 
    Frankly, I don't have that answer....
    So at first I thought I would guard myself, protect my heart and yours and just keep to myself.  Well if you know me, that is impossible, I generate my energy by loving and encouraging others. 

     My response simply; trust God!
    Its okay that I'm hurt, its okay that I cry and if Jesus suffered then I should expect as a sinner; so will I.  What is important is my response; I shouldn't stuff my feeling and I should not dump my feeling but I should bring my feelings to the cross and place my tears at His feet.

    God says in Hebrews 13:5

    Stay away from the love of money; be satisfied with what you have. For God has said, "I will never fail you. I will never forsake you."(NLT)

    Be assured God has a plan for us; we can only see what is in front of us but God has the whole view...Trust in Him and He will take care of  you.

    I chose to be who God has made me, without reservation.  I will move forward with an open heart filled with joy to serve Him.  I will love, as He is loving me and will continue to do so where ever He leads me.

    I heard a good message from Dr.Timothy Keller, that has helped me in this process.  Hope it helps you as well.

    PRAYING OUR TEARS 



Tuesday, 23 June 2009

Sunday, 21 June 2009

  • MOVING AGAIN

    What do you do when you are allowed to stay in one location long enough to pour in to peoples lives only to leave them?  You move to a place where you can live in community and not fear hurting people... So yes; we are heading to Northern California.  Please pray for a quick sale on our home, that we don't take too harsh of a hit and for my babies to withstand one more move...